moving on ...

I finally moved on. new life, new blog! xD

I'll still keep this though, just for the sake of fun. tehee.

One word explains it all.

STRESS

everything I do has to do with it. having migranes almost everyday now doesn't help one bit. pfft.

On the other hand, my friends have gone PIANO-EXAM craze. honestly I really really miss my piano. yes, I shit regretted stopping but I couldn't help it cause I was too effing lazy to touch my piano nor my violin. Ah well, less pressure to me for a while

I just realised my blogskin/ layout gives out this emo-sad-depressing feeling. it must be that pink guy on the right bottom corner. Agh. no good. feeling emo is good when necessary, but not all the time!

just to agree with XiaoYun, our form3 blogsphere IS DYING. or maybe it died already. where the hell is everyone?! oh wait, I'm one of them. hhaha. Shitte. well you can't blame the pressure of PMR. studying almost every single minute& second is such a pain. but when there's pain, there's painkillers too. & for me its MUSIC. x)

I can't think of anything to write anymore. I just reached home from my stepmum's birthday dinner. well, she's not gonna read this but HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTIE WEI ! =]

Marie didn't come to join me this time so I was left alone practiclly throughout the whole time. the food was YUMMY. nyona! spicy spicy! & hearing people in their 40s singing karoke is pretty cool at first, but headache after the next hour. and the next. and the next ......

Oh right, we have the hunt thing tomorrow. can't wait. =)

enough said, I have more pictures! ahaha. I love uploading pictures. it helps fill up those empty spaces in a post.

MCKL. [candid]

friiends. <3

stepmum& dad. together with YangYang, my dog. xD

birthday woman!

I'm so bad at this. HAHA. xD

Dance with me, will you ?

In just a blink of an eye, the concert is over.

As much as I dreaded doing the same damn moves at least 3 times everytime we dance. & the annoying itchy costumes. the blisters from dancing around on those boots for hours. okay, maybe not HOURS. but still. and finally the SUPER loose skirt which we never had time to go alter, and ended up using safety-pins. safety-pins are such a life saver sometimes. =)

Being said, I'm sure hell gonna miss it. sniff. just when you hope the fun would never end.

Today was Shite. stupid karma following me all the way since morning till night. I have no idea what I did wrong but for all I know, a stupid black cat probably walked past me in my sleep. frustrating.

Lost another pack of stick earrings (3rd bag so far) & hairband which I bought barely 2 days ago. whats next is I lost my glasses early in the morning. no idea how. this is also my 3rd pair so far.

& to just tambah salt, being emo basically kills people. specially when you're not having a good day ever since getting out of bed.

Am terriblely sorry for being, like a typical bitch today. can't help myself sometimes can I? stress kills your mind. so does your heart.

my heart ached so much today that I could even feel it physically. Slitting myself would have hurt less than what I just felt today. I realised so many things. I, for one, am a terrible girlfriend, a terrible friend, and also a terrible daughter. what good I bring to anyone? sigh. emo-ness.

Anyway, I started reading ! ahah. yes, i NEVER read. barely. & I'm glad to say the first book I'm currently reading after a million years (no, its NOT Harry Potter. just so you know, I haven't even read the first book for that. or 2nd.) instead, its none other than PS I Love You.

I know probably a million& one girls have already read and wept with it. & now, I'm proud to say that I shall join you bunch of sad emotional drama girls. tee. that is unless, I don't cry.

Enough said. I have nothing else to write anyway. curi-curi took this from my mum cause I can't sleep & its 3am in the morning.

I doubt I'd be sleeping anyway.

Concert Piccies! haven't got all of 'em yet but these are the ones in my phone.

xiao yun ! xD

pretty womaaaan. Dhivya ! (underline underline bold bold!)

Lyss Rachel. at least I spell her name correctly now. xD

potatoe tomatoe. same old same old. haha.

a guy with a Big Butt ! hehehe.

looks like a small boy, doesnt he? I KNOW.

line dancers ! =]

Trishaaaaa.

the Su's ! (Su-Yen, Sue Ann & Su Ch'wan.) hahaha.

Poser much !

Yennie !

I feel much better now.  & also glad to say, no more terrible coughs& sore-troats. ^^

" What doesn't kill you just makes you stronger. "

deprived from my own joy

Its so sad to be sick.

I've been down with a terrible cough & sore-troat for over a week now. its such torture I tell you!

"answer for question 4(a) is *COUGH COUGH* 5012"
"pardon?"
"5012 !!"

"answer for question 4(b) is *COUGH COUGH* 12.15"
"whaat, madam?"
"why is it EVERYTIME i tell the answers only she cough one ah"

that was how anoyying i was.

I still live with the fact that Joshua passed me the cough, although I have no proof to go with it. but still, its fun to put the blame on him. besides, everytime I cough, he coughs! its like, this chain-reaction. tsk.

& on thursday, during tuition, just as I was about to cough, Vincent suddenly gave me strepsils. it was like, he was prepared. I don't really know him& he's only in 2 of my classes, but I reckon its because he wants me to shuttup as my cough was getting very annoying. I felt bad& wanted to pay him back, but he declined. he's such a kind soul (: sadly, now he's sick. I seemed to have passed it to him. oops.

yesterday, my cough and sore-troat grew into a fever. together with a flu. so sad, i know. i felt cold practically the whole day, & I, for one, is a person who sweats like nobody's business. line dancer's should most probably know. xD I went to the sick bed, or sick bay (I don't know) for the whole time during dance practice. around 12pm till school ended? yeah, just spent my time sleeping there. aaahh. so comfy. and then I had a few helpful people like QinXian who bought for me Milo and helped bring it all the way to office& back to the canteen. thank you! and also XinYing& Eugene, for always patting my back when I cough-ed. hearts you people!

KengYee& I felt like eating porridge the whole day yesterday. Mmm. chicken porridge is GOOD! fish porridge sucks cause of the many bones. blekh. x) instead, she had curry for dinner while I had my chicken porridge! heh. Liife of a sad sick people. recently, ALOT of people have been getting sick. I guess its just this disease flying around the school I guess.

It hasn't been raining for quite long now, the weather feels so dry. I want it to rain. I miss the rain.

Also, I wna thank Mark William Chew for being so caring, in a way. he's such a nice friend, I bet XiaoYun would agree. he's always there with the silliest ideas that make you laugh non-stop. & for being there yesterday when I felt worst than down in the dumps.

I miss having you as a good friend, and nothing more. but its always hard, when the feelings are there. back then, you trusted me more, and was more opened to me. now, it seems like you're refrain from telling me things. you want to tell me, but you can't. stop acting like everything's all right, cause its not.

anyway, Rehersal was on yesterday. gaah. why must line dance be the first? it's quite good in the sense, we'll grab most of everyone's attention. our dance ain't that great, but then again, its a line dance! you can't expect much from a line dance. cause, everyone will just be in a LINE. pssh.

I would take this oppurtunity to say,

Happy Birthday ALL July Babies!
god, there's too many of you to wish out one by one.

To ... YuanHong, Elizabeth, Ian, Gracie, Azim, Wen Han, Candy, Vern Kit, Li Gin, Pei Jean, Sin Yein, Kok Kuan, Samantha Ooi, Mdm. Cecilia, Cik Norita & the list goes on. (birthdates not in order)

Happy birthday to all. & yes, I love you'll just as much. ^^

*this was updated again, on the 21st Friday.*

Candy had a small birthday dinner on saturday night, last week. I would love to thank her for inviting. she's sweet! =] & my basketballer babe!

birthday girl ! x]

the girls, during famine. muahs.

hiatus

yes, i haven't been updating my blog for ages, if any of you noticed, which i doubt  but anyways. i'm back updating again.

so about my week, shall we start with famine?
we shall.

it was all great for the first 27hour or so till arriving to the end, that was when the pain started. I havent felt that much starvation in ages! but after the whole thing when we could just eat eat and eat, i couldn't eat much. the pain! asides from that, I got myself 2 new marks on each side of my butt cheeks from famine too. wonderful, no? and it was worst when we had to sit down for 2 talks (3 hours each) just listening to them talking about starving sad abbused children. sniff sniff.

then at night, was when we had our little girl-talk time and also when we anoyyed the hell outta our roomates, so sorry yeh! I swear you can get back at us anytime, we'll understand :D
so yes, we had honesty time where we just said wtvr we liked and felt. it felt good of course. we shared problems and dealt with it, together (:

just wanting to let this out. that no matter what, even if we might act abit harsh or cold to you at certain times, doesn't mean we hate you completely. we're most probably just not in the mood. we still love you babes no matter what. Hoe's over Bro's. (;

and to those in famine,

Xyun :
stand strong babeh ! we'll always love you no matter how& what you are.
SuYen :
my loveable strong woman who's still standing strong being single,& proud of it, eyh eyh? ;p
SueAnn :
my laughable woman whom alot of people don't know how mature she actually is.
Gracie :
my total babe who cares for almost everyone& whom is also cared by everyone.
KengYee :
food? this is more than food this time. this girl's talking big! we love her energy. her presence makes us, feel high. hahaha. yes very high.
Samantha :
my misunderstood woman whom I have total faith in, I know she's independent and will make the right decisions, dont wry ;D
ChengYee :
a girl just like a book being judge by it's cover. not to wry, we love the way you are both inside& outside.
Trish :
my girl whom has been through alot and changed the lives for most of us 'quiet-ones'. we love you yeh!

we say all this because we care ! okay, enough about them. hahaha.

slept only around 3am.

got up next day and finally ate at 3pm. you should see the look on everyone's faces in the canteen when they were seating infront of their food, they just kept staring at the food ! ahahha.

Moving on,

we've finally finished our dance. its nothing much though but from what I've heard we're one of the better ones, thats good, yeh?

Parents Teachers Conference was on Tuesday. honestly, I wasn't that nervous or what like everyone else. cause usually my mum just comes over and take the progress sheet and see 1 teacher and go home. and she wouldn't say anything about it either.

sadly, this year was completely different.

she saw 1 teacher, and that teacher was Mdm. Grace Niles. yeah she's nice& all but she got me screwed till, i have nothing else to say.

"If she were to go to UK ..... I don't think she can make it"

I know its for my own good, but thats kind off insulting. you know how smart I feel in my eng tuition? hehehe.

& my mum took me home, signed me up for tuition for EVERY subject. took away my laptop, and also my phone. that explains my total disappearance from my blog. I was so freaking anoyyed, cause now, not only that I'm not getting allowance for the next 3 months or so (phone bill), I have no other entertainment with me.

I know I should be studying , but you haven't realised how sad it is to wake up early in the morning and study, sleep in the afternoon and wake up, to find yourself studying, AGAIN. shit life i tell you.

I want want want want to go OneUtama or KLCC one day. PEOPLE please bring me out. I beg of you.

I also want want to watch Transformers. Beastwars& Transformer cartoon rocks, agree Daniel?

I am terribly sick with a cough and sore-troat now. been having gastric here and then too. Agh, what luck.

lastly,

Happy Belated Belated very Belated Birthday
Joshua Chan